I think I'd never cry so much in my life before in a day.
It's been... almost the entire day.
A life shocking news, change my entire past around.
It's so overwhelming... and so hard to sink in.
Hubby tried his very best yesterday to accompany me. Took Emergency Leave just to come back and be with me, preparing tissuessss for me while my tear dropped like water tap that runs out of control, cry with me.... he never left my sight. I thank God for him, thank God for who God is... and thank God for putting my precious husband in my life.
Woke up this morning, I thought of the whole situation.... It is not a dream, it is something that's actually happening... and I read of dear messages from my cousin sisters, and I started tearing again.
My eyes have been swollen since yesterday for the non stop 'flowing' for hours. As I woke hubby up for work, he told me from his angle to look at my right eye... it was as though both my eyes were closed. That's how bad it is... even right at this moment that Im typing, I still can feel the stiffness in my right eye especially.
Hubby 'giggles' at the dining table when I smile at him becos my right eye was so small and he could only see a thin black line.
At this point of time, I wanna be strong and be able to accept the fact. Enough of crying yesterday and today, God has mould me all these years to who I am today. There's no need of thinking otherwise and feeling sorry for myself anymore.
I am blessed to be in the family with so much of LOVE showered by everybody else... that I don't even deserved. I thank God for everybody in my family.. and I will claim that FOREVER.
And I am also thankful to my family in Christ who have been trying their best to message, whatsapp, call and ask about me. Could not afford to talk to anyone of them because my eyes were so painful from the crying. But God is GOOD.... He knows what's best for me and I could not imagine how my life would be if I am NOT accepted in His Kingdom, it'll be a total miserable life left for me.
SO, Enough!! I AM who I am, the truth can not change the fact. And I am strong, because of His strength in me. Though I may not be emotionally stable to talk to anyone verbally yet, I am DETERMINED NOT to feel sorrow for this.
Thank you Lord, for Loving me. And thank You for the family that You'd given me.
It's been... almost the entire day.
A life shocking news, change my entire past around.
It's so overwhelming... and so hard to sink in.
Hubby tried his very best yesterday to accompany me. Took Emergency Leave just to come back and be with me, preparing tissuessss for me while my tear dropped like water tap that runs out of control, cry with me.... he never left my sight. I thank God for him, thank God for who God is... and thank God for putting my precious husband in my life.
Woke up this morning, I thought of the whole situation.... It is not a dream, it is something that's actually happening... and I read of dear messages from my cousin sisters, and I started tearing again.
My eyes have been swollen since yesterday for the non stop 'flowing' for hours. As I woke hubby up for work, he told me from his angle to look at my right eye... it was as though both my eyes were closed. That's how bad it is... even right at this moment that Im typing, I still can feel the stiffness in my right eye especially.
Hubby 'giggles' at the dining table when I smile at him becos my right eye was so small and he could only see a thin black line.
At this point of time, I wanna be strong and be able to accept the fact. Enough of crying yesterday and today, God has mould me all these years to who I am today. There's no need of thinking otherwise and feeling sorry for myself anymore.
I am blessed to be in the family with so much of LOVE showered by everybody else... that I don't even deserved. I thank God for everybody in my family.. and I will claim that FOREVER.
And I am also thankful to my family in Christ who have been trying their best to message, whatsapp, call and ask about me. Could not afford to talk to anyone of them because my eyes were so painful from the crying. But God is GOOD.... He knows what's best for me and I could not imagine how my life would be if I am NOT accepted in His Kingdom, it'll be a total miserable life left for me.
SO, Enough!! I AM who I am, the truth can not change the fact. And I am strong, because of His strength in me. Though I may not be emotionally stable to talk to anyone verbally yet, I am DETERMINED NOT to feel sorrow for this.
Thank you Lord, for Loving me. And thank You for the family that You'd given me.
